A 5 year old poem

stayed up in the middle of the night
the wind blew over me,
keeps me a ground of a fright

letting myself to fight out
giving it up and let it shout
but doesn't know how to throw it up.

greasy, empty, and suffocated,
alone and didn't want to hide it.
urge to be wanted
but nobody cares about it.

being left alone,
sick and tired when nobody's home.
words that are left unsaid,
hoping someday it wouldn't be hided.

for this is too much, 

then hear me cry..

I was done checking/cleaning my inbox email a while ago, then suddenly I drawn my attention in my drafts folder and found this poem I wrote 5 years ago. I wrote this one while I'm all alone in our dorm way back in college. My dorm mates were out for I don't remember where the hell did they go that time.
Sometimes, I write all sorts on what's running through my mind, poetic one or anything. I actually did, a lot.
Some of it were written in my green broad notebook from Japan. Hehe!

Anyway, what do you think is the point of that nameless poem?

I was hit by a Korean!

A Moment To Remember, a Korean movie was recommended by a friend of mine to watch it. I was intrigued because they kept on saying that "Ay nako promise maiiyak ka diyan ng bonggang bongga!". So, I asked for a copy and watched it last night.

Su-Jin and Chul Soo

At the batting cage

I remember something/someone in this scene 

Due to Su-Jin's disease, Chul Soo made this sticky notes all over their house. 

This scene is a tearjerker one! I swear to God!!

Of course I won't spoil much about what the story is all about. But I'll make sure that you'll love this movie. 

Korean movies, TV series, never fails to catch my heart up. They always do good ones. I watched a lot of it. So go and see this Korean thingy! Highly recommend you.

Random

I was back again last week in my humbled province for some "errands". But of course, I did get a chance to mingle once again with my cousins and some friends. I did the "errands" for 2 straight days. The following days were spent in full of kwentuhans and food trips. Yes, food trips! I love food tripping with them, it's either we buy food or we cook, and I did the latter.

It was a very random day when me and my cousins were having a chitchat and suddenly thought of cooking sopas, because that time, sopas perfectly suites with the rainy weather, then switched to pasta, then back to sopas then back again to spaghetti. And so, spaghetti won over food arguing.

I took charge of cooking the whole thing while they, continued their kwentuhans. I'm in the mood to cook that time so the pasta turned out on how my cooking skills matched their taste buds.

My very own MacSpag. MacSpag daw oh? ;)

Seriously, it tastes good. They liked it! Happy tummy ☺

Do you give a fuck Manila? -- Lady Gaga Born This Way Ball concert

Second time here in the Philippines, Lady Gaga rocked once again the Filipino fans on her two night concert at the SM Mall Of Asia Arena, Pasay City.

Luckily, I was dragged by my cousins to watch the second leg of her concert and I want to thank them for exempting me to watch it with them, ayt Alyssa?

I am not a big big fan of Lady Gaga, but I must say that I love her songs!

 MOA Arena Coral Way Blue Entrance.

 The show started at 9pm with DJ ZEDD as the front act. And goodness, he gave the crowd an upbeat mixes. He's superb!

After that 30mins of upbeat mixes of DJ ZEDD, Lady Gaga came out of the stage riding a horse at the side of  what she called the Kingdom Of  Fame. That castle structure amazingly open and closes in every of her performance. 

She's a total performer! She knows how to play instruments. She can play the piano using her feet at the same time or lift her legs or whatever part of her body that she can. She's undeniably talented and no wonder she had this haters/protesters from religious groups, she makes great music that other people made an over acting fuss and issues.  

In between of her performances, she quote:

“Tonight is all about togetherness. In our differences, we are all the same.”

“Tonight is not about making a statement. Tonight is us all coming together because we believe we were all born this way.”

“My lifestyle is like one whole performance of liberation, for those of you who aren’t free. Take this opportunity to free yourself.”

"You guys taught me to never give up on myself.”

"I’m not an alien, I’m not a woman, I’m not a man, and I’m not a creature of your government, Manila.  I’m all your dreams and I’m all your potential.  Let me be all your insecurities and your fears. I’m your future, I’m everything that makes you sad and angry.  I’m you, little monsters.  Tonight’s not a statement, tonight’s us coming together because we believe we were all born this way.  Some people say I stand for things that are bad.  The truth is, I want the best for every single one of you.  My life is like one whole performance of LIBERATION.”

“All of those kids all around the world who take their lives when they’re so young because they feel bullied, or they’re afraid because they’re gay and don’t want to tell anybody.  Don’t you think that some of us should fucking stand up for them and speak the goddamn truth? It’s true! It’s not about the music, it’s not about my clothes, it’s not about having hit records. It’s the fucking goddamn truth that people in the world need to be free and be proud of who they are.”

“It’s all about the truth. Its the fucking goddamn truth that people in the world need to be free and be proud of who they are.”

  

I enjoyed the show, really! Two thumbs up to that Gaga!!!

Being married: Every girl's dream... and getting in trouble at the same time.

Another late post. 2 weeks ago (April 28, 2012), marked on our calendar, my sister-in-law and my brother made their relationship to the next level. As far as i know, not sure, they've been together for almost 7years now. And in that duration of their relationship, sis-in-law got preggy unexpectedly but then, they considered it as a blessing and a must treasured one.
I was once, no, not once but a several time witness of their cat and dog alike fights. Honestly, my brother and I wasn't that open enough to each other until I saw them fighting one time that they got me into my nerves! I'm not a fan of what we call "LQ", but they're an avid one. That moment of their troubling relationship, I talked to him seriously as her Ate. Told him to never let a girl cry, never do harm either emotionally or physically but respect, that all their issues can be tackled not in screaming/shouting but in harmonious way, that he's not a kiddo anymore to do such actions like that. My mouth brought all those words to his system and I don't know if he sincerely listened to my short preach. I just hope that he did.
Our so-called "LQ" is always present to them. It's like an excellent student who is present everyday in his class and gets an A+ in report cards.
There's no perfect couple, yes indeed, and it's proven. Though they still do the so-called "LQ", they still made it to the altar, decided to continue and practice that "LQ" thing for the rest of their lives. HAHAHA!

I was then their Maid of honor, my sis-in-law's kuya is their Best Man and the rest are on the invitation list.
Truth is I hate attending wedding ceremonies, it is somehow frustrating for a single human being like me. CHAROTSS! It's when you realize that your close friends/buddies, batch-mates, cousins, and my very own brother are almost getting married. More annoying when you're being asked "Oh! How about you? When will you get yourself in trouble? Este when will you get married? "You're not getting any younger! Go and get one!", and i'm like "Ahh, huh?!" Chos!
However, you get the chance to witness a couple whom you've known ending up at the church together with their both respective families and close friends. Listening to their wedding songs, I do's, vows, seeing them wearing their wedding rings, and most especially the most awaited "You may now kiss your bride". What a romantic scene! Damn it!

That day, was our family's very first big event. Big as I said because another addition to our clan, and it is the first time that we had a wedding event for almost ages I guess.
As the eldest, I'm happy for  my brother and I'm thankful for my sis-in-law's side who gave their support all the way, as well as my family. I must say that their fam was so great that I with my family are lucky to know each of them. From my sis-in-law's parents up to her siblings and cousins whom I get along with. No dull moments with the Ramos family.

Here we go again! Pictures please!!

Here comes the bride

Daddy Hapon and Mommy Edna :)

My "hindi magpapakabog sa hair and make-up" Mommy and  Daddy dearest :D

Ramos fam! What a big happy family!

And ofcourse! My very own ♥

Giveaways 

My sister (with the wacky face and a big blue arrow on her side) who was an hour late! She didn't make it at the wedding ceremony because she took an exam at this university in Manila. Better late than never ang peg!

The after party with Ramos cousins

Fireworks beybe!

The reception took place at Krishna's humbled home. From the church, just a 10 footsteps away to the reception.   

Everybody had fun! Both sides of our families. The newly wed had their thank you speech after the programs.
It was a blast!


To my brother, I wish that you'll be more responsible, show RESPECT, be a good father to your kids and especially, be a good husband to your wife.
And to my sis-in-law, I wish that you'll have more patience. More more more patience. If you know what I mean! HA HA!

And it all ends here.